We walk down the street together, quietly, only her steps reverberating against the asphalt. This is the city that never sleeps, lovers with under eye bags looking at each other on the bus, softly oscillating their way back home. And so do we, but hugging clumsily. I start to walk faster for no reason and she pulls me back and kisses me. Why are you sad, I ask; I am sad because you’re leaving. I am not going anywhere, I say; she says everyone leaves in the end, this city is not made for long lasting relationships. No big city is made for long lasting relationships and that’s why I keep all my interactions shuttered and I shuffle the pieces when I travel, that way I last forever in the eyes of my friends and lovers. You’re like a fucking sailor, she says; I’m just a slut I say. Same thing, she replies.
I pull her closer and take my time to taste her lips, who knows when I’m going to see her again, so I let my tongue in a little bit further and firmer. She moans into my mouth and I know we have to go home and fuck, I am burning and her breath is like a wild wind. She pushes me against the wall of a building and presses her leg between my thighs and my pleasure just cracks open in my lungs and splashes all over my insides, everything is pulsing.
I grab her hair and pull until her neck is completely exposed to me, and I bite hard, I bite deep, I don’t have a better way to tell her how much I want her, I want to eat her and carry her inside me forever, I then want to melt in the sun and have the Nature take its course.
I love you, I say; I love you, she says and I take her in again, I want every drop of her saliva to contaminate me, transform me, make me hers and destroy me. Please kill me, I whisper; and she says I will kill you a million times but please come back to me.
I have nowhere else I want to go if she is alive, I will crawl back to her from the other side of the globe and beg her to lick my bleeding knees until I feel no pain, until I am pain, until I wake up with the first rays of sun to look at her face next to me.
I will come back, I say; I know, she says, let’s go home, let’s fuck.
